day twenty nine: on quitting

The word ‘quit’ already has a nasty taste to it, regardless of where it is applied. It sounds dirty and quick, comes off the tongue with a bite. The “qu” sound seems hollow, empty. The word implies you did not do enough where you could have done more, makes it seem as if you failed to live up to something you had once promised and that you let people down.

We live in a society where movement is praised and stagnation is feared. You must continue to do more, boost your resume even if you have a job, give to the homeless because you have a home, run a marathon after you work a 45-hour week. Don’t forget to bake cookies for the bake sale, send a card to your grandma and field your sister’s concerns about college. Also, your dog really should be walked more than just 5 minutes after work and you shouldn’t watch so much television and reading your iPhone screen at night is bad for your eyes.

Don’t forget to say your prayers.

And then we wonder how we get burned out of our lives we’re supposed to love because we built them on purpose? Maybe the pronouns are the problem. We didn’t build anything and these are not our lives for the making. Yet, we forget. We wrestle with ourselves, ignore our intuition out of obligation. So when part of us decides that perhaps the thing we signed up for is too much, not right, not fitting – the other side of us says “you always give up too soon” and “you owe this to people” and “you can’t quit.”

But what fruit were you getting at that time? [Romans 6:20]

Good question, isn’t it? This question comes at the end of a paragraph in Romans that discusses “slavery to righteousness” – forgetting that we are saved by grace and not by works. I think in this constant communication and information age , one of our biggest struggles is learning to say no, learning to say I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore. Years ago, one of my favorite bloggers wrote a post I have bookmarked on what happens when you feel behind. She said “this disease needs a cure and only the Healer can give it.” I know what she means today and I hope I feel that lightness that is promised by Our God who says that He is in control, He will give you rest.

No servant can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. [Luke 16:13]

Say it with me: I can not do it all. Because we cannot. And we must be more attentive to our souls and intuition. We must be willing to say yes when life comes calling and no when the call is too loud, and we must do so without apologizing. I believe that living a full life means living it on your terms – you can serve, love, hope and dream bigger and better when you’re doing so to the best of your ability. And the best of your ability doesn’t always mean stretched to your ability.

So today, on this Monday take a deep breath and don’t feel bad when you can’t do all the things you pressure yourself to do. Have patience when your heart tells you to say no and really listen to whether yes or no is the answer you need to give.

See you tomorrow.

XO,

CB

Today is day twenty nine in my 31 days of patience series. For all posts in the series,click here.

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One response to “day twenty nine: on quitting

  1. Good post 🙂

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